[DAY 55 OF THE DEEP END PROJECT]
“Divine Mother of all life, Take me to that place, Deep within your womb, Where I can know no-thing, And be re-born anew”
This is a Divine Feminine Prayer by Kaia Ra, author of the book Sophia Code.
The book isn’t really a book but a series of initiations and incantations. I’ve never heard of anyone who chose this book for a little light reading. The book choses you.
It lay untouched on my kindle for a year and a half before I picked it up. By then I had already started walking the path of The Divine Feminine.
One of the pillars of any spiritual practice is Surrender.
If you ask me, Surrender is at the core of Law of Attraction, manifestation and Raising your Consciousness.
This prayer called to me as an act of Surrender.
“Divine Mother of all life, Take me to that place, Deep within your womb, Where I can know no-thing, And be re-born anew”
I started speaking it every morning.
Then one day, I had a bad day.
Not just a regular bad day, this was one of the “everything sucks and I want to go and live in the mountains” kinda bad day.
I started doing my Morning Pages and poured everything out. Hatred and Resentment was spewing all over the page.
Hatred towards myself.
The words we say to ourselves are the meanest words possible.
I won’t go into detail of what I wrote, but I will say that I would never talk to my children, my husband, my friends, my peers or anyone that way.
But that day, it was important that it all came out.
So it did.
In the end, I wrote these exact words “I know nothing. I am nothing. I am nothing. I am nothing.”
I stopped.
I blinked. Twice.
I wiped my tears.
A voice in my head “yes that’s true. You are here. In my womb. You are no-thing. You know no-thing. You are being born anew.”
What the fucking fuck?
Did you see what happened over here?
The prayer. My prayer. I had been saying it for weeks.
I had been asking to be no-thing. And now I am IT.
Veil. Thick black veil lifted from my eyes. And I could finally “see”
I laughed. At the irony of it all.
I finally wrote ‘It’s true. I am no-thing. I know no-thing. I am ready to be born anew”