[DAY 44 OF THE DEEP END PROJECT]
You can have it all.
But not at the same time.
Time.
The only non-renewable resource we have access to all day, everyday.
And, yet what we choose to do with it, is what matters.
Everyday, I have a never ending list of things I want to get done. I am sure you do too.
There’s no way that I can do all of them in the time I have available. So I choose.
It’s 10:00 pm here and I am just getting down to write for The Deep End Project.
It’s not ideal. I don’t want to leave my writing till 10:00 pm but today I chose it this way.
Because after trying to have it all for so many years, I have made peace with the fact that I can have it all, but not at the same time.
Last night, my 5 yr old wanted to build his new lego set. He got it as a present and all he wanted was to finish it.
It was bedtime and he begged me to let him just put the wheel on his car.
“Just the wheels mommy, please!”
I gave in but 30 seconds later heard him crying loudly.
Turns out, he made a mistake and now the whole car needed to be taken apart and built again.
In short, he ran out of time.
I promised him that I’ll help him re-do the whole thing first thing in the morning.
When I woke up today, he ran to my room and said “let’s do the lego mommy”
Usually I wake up, have coffee, journal and so on and so forth.
Today, I chose my time differently. We went straight for the legos and spent the next 45 minutes there.
Which meant that I had to leave The Deep End Project until this late.
The old Deepshikha would have been very pissed at this. She would’ve said “It’s all or nothing! Now there’s no point in doing this”
But the much wiser Deepshikha, who knows those to-do lists are just lists, has a different opinion.
I can have it all, just not at the same time.
So I choose.
A friend asked me today if there are days when I don’t feel like writing for The Deep End Project.
Honestly, so far…nope!
Have there been days when I feel like my inspiration well is running dry? Absolutely!
But so far there hasn’t been a day when I don’t want to write.
That is why even if it’s 10:00 pm right now and it’s my usual time to netflix and chill, I choose to write.
Netflix will be there tomorrow, but Day 44 of The Deep End Project? Not so much!
I don’t make such great choices with my time everyday, but today I think I chose well.
At the end of the day, I had it all.
Time with my kids.
A clean house.
Time with friends.
Good food
Lots of Laughter
And Day 44, done and dusted.
After all, I can have it all. Just not at the same time.