[DAY 27 OF THE DEEP END PROJECT]
I was going through my notes today and found this piece I wrote for my book the day after I hosted The Rich Lady Legacy Retreat. I don’t know if it will make it in the book, but here it is!
(Extract from the Book)
Quick tell me.
What do you desire?
Would you be able to tell me?
Without thinking
Do you have the answer on the top of your tongue?
Oh did you say, a vacation to Paris?
A million dollars?
That dream house?
Yeah I would have said the same thing too
Right now I am sitting in a restaurant in New York City
Alone
No kids
No husband
I have the whole day ahead of me
The sun is shining
It’s a gorgeous day
Nippy not bone chilling cold.
I have the time, the freedom and a good amount of cash and credit line to have anything I desire.
Yes, anything
So I asked myself
“Mini what do you really want?”
Mini is my nickname and whenever I talk to myself, I use that name
As I sipped my Mimosa that’s more Orange Juice than champagne, I asked again
“What do you really want?”
BLANK.
I could go into a Chanel showroom and buy the bag I’ve been obsessing over
I could walk into a spa right now and get a massage. Yeah a massage would certainly feel good
I could buy the most gorgeous dress or a bright red lipstick
But none of it is what I truly desire
So what is it?
“Mini, what do you truly desire?”
Think.
“What do you want?”
BLANK
Oh gosh, this is hard
I really don’t know
The truth is Women have been cut off from their desires.
We have been told what we should want
Not what we really want.
We should want to play with dolls when we are younger
We should want to have kids
We should want to love how to cook
The problem is we are asking the wrong question.
The real question should be “what am I hungry for?”
Hmmm….now that’s juicy.
That, I can answer.
I am hungry to be a woman who loves every inch of her body and all parts of herself as much as she loves her family
I am hungry to be the business owner who makes a difference in people’s lives & get paid big bucks for it
I am hungry to walk onto a stage knowing in every cell of my body that I belong there
I am hungry to have someone walk up to me this minute, yes this minute as I drink this shitty mimosa and say “Deepshikha, you changed my life!”
I am hungry to be in Service to my craft, to have unlimited abundance and to be deeply spiritual.
I am hungry to live a life of Joy, Fulfillment and Peace with a deep knowing that I am worthy just for being.
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