[DAY 6 OF THE DEEP END PROJECT]
I woke up feeling pissed today
Which wasn’t surprising…
If you sleep feeling pissed off, there’s a good chance that you’d wake up pissed too.
I had a really nice dinner of Tacos and Margaritas with my friends last night.
(I take Cinco De Mayo very seriously!)
I felt happy and fuzzy…..until I turned to Facebook.
I got sucked into someone’s Facebook (or the Facebook version of their business) and I could literally feel all the happy, fuzzy feelings leave my body, one drop at a time.
I don’t usually Facebook hate someone right before bed.
But yesterday I did.
Her photos.
Her success.
Her programs.
Everything was taunting at me.
Before I knew it, I had gone down the drain of comparing myself to her.
I am pretty sure she is a lovely person btw who deserves every bit of that success.
But….ugh! Comparisonitis is real.
I wanna tell you here – – “so this is what I did and I felt so much better”
Or, spin you some other spiritual, toxic positivity BS.
But, I won’t.
I wanna do it.
I wanna do it so bad.
I wanna share some major piece of wisdom here that makes me feel like a saint. Just so I can feel good about myself.
But this isn’t what this project is about.
So nope. I don’t feel better.
I am still pissed.
I didn’t meditate. (I tried but I kept thinking of all the things I am doing wrong so I gave it up)
I didn’t even get on my Peloton today (which obviously was a mistake).
But it’s okay.
I’ll allow it.
I’ll be pissed for as long as I need to be pissed.
Not that I have a choice (lol!)
So yeah on Day 6 of The Deep End Project, that’s all I have for you.
P.S – Don’t look at Facebook (or Instagram) before bed, okay?